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Tuesday, July 10, 2007,7/10/2007 08:24:00 PM

Let's go back to the old times! :D. The time when we were all happy. Joyful joyful. Crapping and crapping. Ohh what the hell right. We can be happy again. Just not so joyful like last time. But it's okay. At least we'll all still be happy.

YEAH NUFIA!

And sorry if I was such a pest or anything to you dann.

Friday, July 06, 2007,7/06/2007 09:21:00 PM

Oh mann. Ive done it again. Ive said something wrong. Ive done something wrong. Again. I'm really really sorry if it has affected any of you. I swear I didn't mean it. Im at the stage where I can cry any time soon and stuff. This breakdown is getting uncontrollable. I gotta keep my mouth shut from now. I'm sucha loser. Loser. Loser.

Thursday, July 05, 2007,7/05/2007 08:30:00 PM

I swear I really miss everything

Hello and welcome to the long awaited episode of " FADFAD SAYS IT ALL YAW! ". Here in this show, it features the inner thoughts and feelings of FADFAD. So what are you waiting for? Read on man!

I seriously hate reminiscing seriously. But I guess I cant help it. Even if I dream for only a second, my memories will come back to me. It sucks. I hate having to remember memories and realise that I cant relive those memories now since memories can only remain memories and nothing else. Sometimes I just wish that someone can just brainwash me so I can forget about everything.

I really miss laughing with my friends, genuinely, joking around like it's nobody's business. I really miss it. At those times, my sense of humour level was on 100. Now it's only on 50. So go figure. And sometimes I laugh just to distract myself from remembering back those memories. Gosh, how pathetic can I get? Yea, if only I didn't socialize much, these memories wouldn't be here. But it already happened. So oh well.

I really missed being really happy. Last time, I always felt happy, never letting anything negative come in my way. But now, almost all my smiles are fake. I feel so empty now like theres no feelings in my anymore. And whenever I remember having fun being happy and thought abt ynnad! I'll start crying like there's no tomorrow cause I know I can't relive those back. I really really really miss being happy. Seriously.

And wth I still cant get over it. No matter how hard I tell myself to move on, bitch. I still can't. I'm really stupid. Hopeless. Pathetic. Whatever! I just wish ynnad! wouldn't ignore me so much. I just wish I can joke around sincerely all the time again. I just wish we could all be happy again. I just wish we could all be able to say anything without worrying who will get hurt again.

I wish I wish I wish. Geez. Get real. Those wishes won't come true bitch and you know that. Gahs.

I'm so messed up. Empty. Whatever.

And so that marks the end of today's episode. Tune in a century later for more!

P.S. This post is so crap that I'll salute whoever that reads this.